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After a rather nasty break-up back in mid-November I just stopped caring about myself. I was doing soooo well just before then…I was losing weight and I was on my to being a normal, healthy weight. Now I’m just the opposite. I’ve just completely stopped caring and now I’m totally miserable.

 I’ve got to get into gear. NOW. I may not have the same motivation as I did last year, but that just means now I have to do this for me. It’s so much easier when you have a super amazing guy to motivate you, buuuut…this way is probably much better in the long run. *grumble*

 Anyway…I do tend to blog when I’m feeling the urge to consume an entire village made of chocolate, so expect a few random posts from me. hehehe

Well….I’ve only been back on track for a week and a half now, but I think for some reason I’m sabotaging myself. This last week all I’ve wanted to do is eat. I went out and got some healthy snacks…rice cakes, bags of mini carrots….but I am just so hungry and snacky!

On top of the major hungreeee attacks, I’ve not been doing any sort of excersize. I have noooo motivation. Still just sitting here in a miserable state of mind, moping about the last 7 months and just feeling sorry for myself.

 I see amazing stories about people who have lost so many pounds over just a few months, but I just don’t know HOW they did it!!! I just don’t know what to do….any advice for the constantly hungry and unmotivated?

Oh my…..it’s been a very VERY long time since I’ve been on here….probably around the 6 months range, now. Over that time rthings have happened that had a huuuuge impact on me emotionally and I’ve put on 10 pounds (which actually surprises me…thought it’d be 100 pounds more.)

I won’t get into all the awesome details of why I’ve been gone, but I’m back and trying to get my life back on track….scary thought, but nobody’s going to put it back on track for me. I’ll probably be quietly lurking around, but I’ll be here! You’ve all been so great in the past and I’m looking forwards to coming back and getting my behind kicked.

So, this morning as I was laying in bed, thinking about how I really didn’t want to wake up, I realised that I had lost my motivation. It’s been missing for a while now. Don’t know where I lost it, or exactly when, but I realized it was gone. So I got up and went in search of it. I came across a door marked “Lost and Found” so I went in. What I saw was motivation, all shapes and sizes, filling every inch of the room. I searched for my own motivation and after a while I saw it! A tall man with long blonde hair and a sexy British accent…yup! That was MY motivation! I found it again! So I grabbed that motivation and handcuffed myself to it.

On the way out the door I stopped to think for a minute….there was ALOT of motivation in that lost and found room. What if nobody knew where the room was? So I took all the motivation out of the lost and found and have sent them back to everyone who has lost it! It should be arriving in the mail shortly! lol

Hope you all get your motivation back if you’ve lost it!!!! Best of luck all!!!

I’m the first to admit…I have a fruit and veggie problem. I just don’t eat enough of them! I’ve tried to get apples, peaches, pears in the house to have for breakfast, which works out pretty well, but I have teh hardest time getting enough. I eat toooo many processed foods and carbs, they’re just so much easier for me. It’s just grab and go, where with veggies and fruit you have to wash it, peel it, cut it….and, let’s face it, I’m just lazy. lol

So, my question to you fruit and veggie gurus out there…how can I get more fruits and veggies into me? How can I cut back on processed foods and carbs? Bread kills me. I love it soooo muuuuch. But it can’t be whole wheat, no. It must be white.

I’m determined to get myself into gear starting today! I WILL do this! I only have 3 months left until Anf comes to visit!

Just a quick blog about something that happened today with my boy.

I was going off, telling him how perfect I thought he was. I’m an incredibly sappy romantic, just so you know. After I had gone on for a while about how awesomely amazing I thought he was he went a bit quiet. So I asked him what was wrong. He then just opened up and said that he wished he had a perfect body, and a perfect personality, and was perfect looking. He said he didn’t want to disappoint me when he got here. He told me he hated his body, his looks…everything.

Now, I knew men had these issues, but I never would have expected Anfy to have these issues. He’s always seemed so confident, happy, carefree, he doesn’t care about what other people think. It just kind of made me take a step back and realise that I’m not alone in my self-loathing. lol. And even the most confident people do have their own hang-ups.

Ok…the last two weeks have been…well…excercize-less.  I haven’t done anything physical at alll, not even go out and ride! My sleep schedule has been way off, too…staying up all night, going to sleep at 7am, sleeping all day…it’s terrible. The plus side, though, is that I sleep through breakfast and lunch! lol!!!

So, starting tomorrow I get MOVING! I muuust! I’ve got 3 months and 1 week left until the boy arrives from London. That’s not much time at all! I’m going to need LOTS of support and motivation, so ladies and gents….come and give me a swift kick in the rear and get me out and excercizing. My eating isn’t too bad (except for a couple of cookies this weekend) but I gotta keep track again.

So…here I go! Again!!!

That’s right! The boy is coming to visit December 28th and I have to be looking and feeling super sexy. I don’t think I’ll be able to reach my goal weight, but I can get alot off if I get my butt into gear. I did leg excercizes for about an hour today (legs, hips, butt are my worst areas) and ate pretty well. But I must do more! I’ve got to work my ass off…literally!

So….more excercize, more fruits and veggies, less junk, and even MORE excercize! Let’s get it in gear!!!! Only 3 months and 3 weeks until he gets off that plane!

I got on the scales today to see what’s happened since I haven’t weighed in a while. To my shock and incredble joy I realised I have now lost 11lbs! When I had lost 5 I thought “Well…..it’s only 5 and it’ll probably all come back….I’ve lost 5 before and had it come back” but with 11 I’m thinking “I can DO this!!!!!”

I’m feeling awesome, my bf is planning a trip out to see me around New Years Eve, so I think I’ll be totally ready for him! No….I WILL be ready for him! I’ll be skinny, and sexy, and look graceful as I fall down the mountain snowboarding, not like a giant snowball!

 I’m gonna keep it up! I’m gonna be lookin awesome in nooo time. All you ladies who have been here to keep me on track…THANK YOU! You’re all such a massive help to me with all your workds of encouragement and motivation. We can do this!!!

Well, I have had absoloutely NO motivation this week. My little sister and her husband came to town for the week, which has been really nice. I haven’t seen them since the wedding in early May. I’ve been eating well, but I have NOOOOO motivation to excercize. I’ve been sluggish and tired and just blaaaaah. But I’m gonna get back up and moving regularly starting Monday. (I’ll be doing stuff with my sister this weekend. hehehe)

I’m proud of myself, though, because even though I haven’t been excercizing, I have eaten SOOO well. I only had one cookie when my sister made them, instead of the usual 5. lol.

Here’s to a new week full of excercize!!!!